My Breastfeeding Story

I wanted to share more about my story.

I start my Beautiful Breastfeeding Photography project when Jack decided to self wean unexpectedly just over a year ago. I had a tricky start with my breastfeeding journey with both Evie and Jack however with the help of Uma and her amazing team @motherandchildsingapore, I was a pro.

I knew I wanted to breastfeeding my babies as soon as I fell pregnant. It felt like the most natural decision to make, however I had no idea it would be so tricky. My journey to falling pregnant with Evie was a long and emotional one so I was determined to be a master at nursing. The first few weeks Evie were really tough, involving syringe feeding, pumping and generally crying a lot. Once we found our flow it was amazing.

I weaned Evie from nursing just before her first birthday based on the advice from our gynae as we knew our journey to conceiving again could take a really long time. It was such a tough decision but I knew I wanted to try for a brother or sister for her too.

With Jack I had put no end date on our nursing journey. I wanted to enjoy the bonding with him for as long as possible. Being a second child I felt aware that we didn't get much alone time so our breastfeeding quiet time was so special. Sadly Jack fell poorly with an ear infection and that caused him to self wean. It happened so fast I was devastated. I kept our routine and kept offering him but he wasn't interested. He decided he only wanted a bottle.

I miss our quiet time together, when he would stare into my eyes and hold my face or play with my nose. I feel like I never got to do the 'last feed' and really prepare for the end. I never got to capture some photographs together (for either babies) apart from the selfies of course. I miss being his everything!